“Laugh as much as you breathe and love as long as you live."
How true and free from erroneousness.
I want to live life to the fullest, in pursuit of happiness.

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Tired of Waiting.
Infatuated much?

1. Darlin.
2. Naive.
3. I feel like spilling everything out to you.
4. My heart feels, uneasy/insecure.
5. Wait, alright? 

p/s back to yiruma night therapy.

I've been living like junkie for the past few days.
Gotta stop. Gotta live my life WELL.
And stop nua-ing.
I know I'm typing many random things, I just have so many things up there in my head..
I guess I'm using this as a channel to rant it all out. 
I write to relieve myself. So I guess I'll stick to my written diary.


p/s I feel like I have no say in the family. I feel quite insignificant in a way. 
My parents just can't seem to get what I'm trying to put across, most of the time, about spiritual things.
Sometimes they tell me, that its good if I would give up church for a while to study, or like, going for 1 service is good enough?
Don't be selfish and pursue your own dreams?  
I'm sorry just mentioning issues that have been bugging me.
It strange and confusing. 
Why? How we all believe in the same God, but have different mindsets towards different issues.
And sometimes when I want to tell them how I feel, something just holds me back. 
Or I don't even know how to respond to whatever they tell me... 
Maybe its the way I speak to them, knowing that I might accidentally disrespect them...
Or maybe I'm just too timid to express myself.
Neither way is good.
probably because my parents have been christians for decades and compared to me? 
and talking to them about spiritual things just makes me wonder, if I'm right (or not?) 
Sometimes I wonder if I even have faith, because I don't trust myself, I don't trust myself to make the right stand, decisions.
Still, in the midst of this confusing and thought provoking process, I'll always bear in mind, to respect my parents. 
I'll also keep following my heart because I know God will guide me, and show me the what is right.
I'm sure he will.

p/p/s Its 2.30 am and since I can't sleep right now. 
I think I shall worship, pray and just be spongy (like a sponge)... 
Absorbing more and more and more and refreshing myself in the spirit.
for indeed, there is no one greater than Our God.
For greater things have yet to come.... 

p/p/p/s Your word is lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path.
 

I miss beasty performances,
I miss crazy, idol shows, and idol army,starking,infinity girls w/you guys
I miss wy's ssanti and anganggggz
I miss those hamsum faces. (laughs)
I miss them all ¬.¬

I love God
I love my life
I love others
I really love God with all my heart, my soul and all my might.
Its hard to explain believing in the invisible.
But HIs love has touched me and thousands and millions of people.
And now because of his His agape love for me,
I am ever willing and ready to sacrifice this mere soul of mine for others

I love it, when I wake up and always know there's someone spurring me on to run this race,
someone who will never leave me nor forsake me,
someone who never sleeps - just to watch over me,
someone who will always comfort me,
someone who will never give up on me,
someone who will encourage me,
someone who will empower me to do greater things,
someone I can always count on, always turn to, and
someone who will love me forever and ever.

That no profound thought or clever rhyme
No soaring grand, melodic line
No theory, philosophy or sign
Can explain it
Can explain

Where you are, I wanna be
It's your love that has changed me
I'd give the world, and all it's charms
For a moment in your arms
Better is one day with you
Than a thousand elsewhere *
A thousand elsewhere....

Indeed,
One day with you oh Lord,
is better than a thousand elsewhere
 

Maybe I'm just being complacent but now that exams are drawing near,
I'm absolutely absolutely hating it.
Sheesh, Booz, urghhhhh.
Really disappointed.
I feel like ranting but everyone's in school.
There's chinese tuition again ...
I wanna go out and chill.
But if I did, I'd be too guilty for NOT studying.
Oh gosh, I can't believe I'm saying that but yes, I know I'd be letting everyone down.
I can't let my parents down, I can't let myself down.

p/s
I'm sorry this post may or may not be grammatically correct, with the punctuation and paragraphing whatever, but I just can't be bothered at a time like this.

p/s/s
that something between us.
It wasn't love, i guess it was just ... infatuation
And infatuation is something unattainable.
So Liz, if you even get what I mean.
Urgh for me, Urgh Urgh Urgh for you ^^
Oh and I think we should talk in codes, it'll be better for us.

p/s/s/s oh, class just ended for 3/1zzzzzzz.

I'll bring praise
I'll bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I'll rejoice, I'll declare
God is my victory and he is here.

And this is my prayer in  the harvest
When favour and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be emptied again
The seed I've recieved I will sow

I've been sneezing like mad.
My hair's in a mess, I just tied it up to a high high high high bun- kinda resembles dara.
Whoohoo.
I feel damn sick
Really, I can kill myself.
I feel so .........
Urgh, ok chill chill chill (blows*)

I don't care ey ey ey ey ey~
I don't care eh eh eh eh eh~
I think 2ne1 just shook my world.
2ne1 tv, i love it when they get too tired and they all get high and do some crappy dance
Yg yg yg.
But JYP ftw.

I wanna be a PD when I grow up.
I really want to be one.
And my boss shall be da one and only JYP!
JYP rocks my world ( besides The Beatles/The Kooks/ John Mayer/ YIRUMA and all my yadda kpop)
But sakamato's merry christmas mr lawrence has been stuck on my head....

p.s I'm eating tissue muahahhaa.
cos i've been sneezing like a maniac, i decided to munch on that piece of tissue, don't ask me why but its incredibly true
Its been a long time writing like this.
Maybe because I'm feeling a little high on those medical drugs.
This is what medicine does to young little girls... (like me- thick skin*)
heeehee.
ㅋㅋ

 

Love, the sweet spring blossoms cling
To many a broken wind-tossed bough,
And young birds among branches sing
That mutely hung till now.

Dear love, my pulses throb and start
To-night with longings sweet and new,
And young hopes beat within a heart
Grown old in loving you
 
When the lives of others seemed to have gotten better
Mine just took a toll on me
My life's screwed.